Kas as asu?

Kas as asu? Who am I?

Am I the same person I was when I was seven? Fifteen?

I read a quote in "Telling True Stories" that went something along the lines of "We're all just kids in junior high who happened to have aged." I don't know if that's entirely the case, but it seems like it could be.

I remember thinking in high school that I hadn't changed one bit. That I was still the person I was when I was seven. Now, I'm not so sure. I know the years have changed me in multiple ways, and I know my outlook on a lot of things is quite different. Am I the same person? Probably not.

There was an ad or show on TV that suggested twenty-somethings spend the majority of their time trying to find themselves. I haven't been on a kick worrying about who I am, but I can't say that I haven't been thinking about it. It may just be a by-product of where my mind wanders.

I've started to feel more comfortable in my skin and more aware of who I am. I've been consistently happy for the first time in a very long time, and that's something.

That's not to say that I'm not still terrified of the idea of never landing a job and having no solid income, but I'm hoping someday someone somewhere will hire me. Perhaps knowing Lithuanian will help :)

I still miss my grandma every single day, and I wonder what she would think about me trying to learn Lithuanian. I think she would think it's pretty cool. And I bet she would start to remember certain things if I told her what I was learning.

And I bet she would love my kitten. I'm sure she does.